The Saddest New Year's Event Again

Yesterday was became the saddest new year's event again . Why ? Because , It's the second times where i don't stay with my momma , my brother , my sister , and my lil brother to celebrated a New Year . I'm not pray with my lil family . I'm actually sad in my heart . But , i will always try to hide it . My Momma should as the first that i said Happy New Year . But , it's not :( It's just because one thing which i can't explain in here . I'm actually miss them :( Miss our togetherness which we're not get it since our daddy's dead . Togetherness's lost casually. They're never aware how much i love them . They just can envy with me just because My all aunty's have a sense of sympathy with me . I know that i'm wrong because i've taken their attention from you to me . I know that i shouldn't do it . But , i don't what must i do . I'm always tell about my problem with them . How about all of you ? Both of you're not have a little time to me .

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In 2011 , i was faced a lot of problems .. !! It's too much . Really really much !~ I'm think in a see one's way that i won't through this all problem without My Deceased Daddy :( 2011 is a year where i and my lil family were got a lot of trial who we can't through :( Although , it's just about our economy . Since my daddy's dead , We can't manage our money 'till that completed casually :( i can say that 2011 is my suffering's year . I Just can laugh and smile for hide my sadness without show my tears . Why must my family who faced this whole problem ? :( I've actually given up !! it's never stop since my father's death. 

But now , i just can hope that in 2012 , i can get a lot of blesses , get a trial slightly , get my dreams , make my momma so proud of me . Closed 2011's books firmly . and Open 2012's books :) 

Hopefully , 2012 will be a years which full with a lot of blesses !! :) 

Okay , it's just my lil story in the beginning of the year :) God bless you all :)